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Dark Kirby01 
NOT NOUBEE!!11!
(9/24/02 4:27 pm)
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Goodbye everyone.
EDIT:Forget the suicide stuff,I'm too much of a wimp for suicide....And I know how much it sucks for other people,and myself,so...neh.this is basically a goodbye post now,not a 'i'm gonna kill myself' post..although advice is still welcome
I've had fun,but now I must go.
I'm going to go off and kill myself,because my life is worthless,as my mother tells me.
She has told my whole family that I hate them,and they believed her.I have lost all of my possessions,including my computer.(I'm sneaking on my sister's computer at the moment)
I have no friends,my mom forbid my only friend to ever see me again.My mom will force me to go to public school,full of people who hate me and beat me up.She has taken all of my money,and has said I'm not allowed to have money anymore.All because I exploded because of my stupid @#%$ anger building up...And that ended up with me treating my mother like just another person,not a god like she wants,and I ended up punching her.She threw me on the ground,and then I lost it all.....
So,goodbye everyone.And farewell....
Edited by: Dark Kirby01 at: 9/24/02 5:23:44 pm
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BlazeHedgehog
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(9/24/02 4:31 pm)
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Re: Goodbye everyone.
Shit. Chances are he isn't even going to read this.
I don't honestly know what to say, other than don't go through with suicide. You should just call child services. Until you're 18, they can help. This has to be some sort of child abuse -- not so much physical abuse, but mental.
They'll straighten her out, one way or another.
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Dark Kirby01
NOT NOUBEE!!11!
(9/24/02 4:40 pm)
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...
(i've not done it yeti have a fear of sharp objects...God,I'm such a wimp,can't even commit suicide...and yes I know it's a stupid thing to do,but this situation can only get worse..I don't want to go through this...)
Ah,but you see,this is all my fault.You see,I'm apparently spoiled,and my mom wants to straighten it out.So she's taking everything away from me.The things that lead to this were...
me yelling shut up at her down the stairs because she was making fun of me somewhat (I'm HORRIBLE with anger,I just kinda explode...)
She came up the stairs and started yelling at me and said she'd take away my computer,and she hit me.Due to my horrible anger thing,I just...hit her back.I didn't want to,I just...did.And from then on it was just verbal abuse and whatnot,then it ended up in me losing it all.
It's all my fault...
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Perfect Dream Leo 
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MOOGLE CAVERN ZONE.
(9/24/02 4:42 pm)
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Re: Goodbye everyone.
Oh Christ, Dark if you read this, please, please, DO NOT do it.
Look, I'm sure things look bad but life is ups and downs, and you have to be strong and deal with the downs. Find someone to talk to. A friend, whatever Child Protection you have in America, a teacher, a neighbour, ANYONE.
The best way to feel better is to talk to someone. Suicide is not the answer. All it does is hurt you and the people you care about.
Look, you only have one chance at life, and If you decide to end it at such an age, you'll lose so much potential. There's so much life left in you. Don't throw it all away like that, because it isn't worth it.
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H Hog 
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(9/24/02 4:45 pm)
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STOOOOOOOOOOOP! @_@
...Just... don't... please dude, even though how tough it sounds now... just.... hang on, man...
Explain your family if you have to, try getting your stuff back somehow, I dunno, just... Don't resort to this, Okay? O_O;
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Doom hero 
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(9/24/02 4:49 pm)
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Re: Goodbye everyone.
look dark, we've all had hard times. Suicide is not the answer. You are a good person, and I would be very sad if you died v_v
Think this over man, just apologize to everyone in your family. DON'T KILL YOURSELF MAN, I'M BEGGING YOU! JUST DON'T KILL YOURSELF...
Edited by: Doom hero at: 9/24/02 4:50:56 pm
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Neokku
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(9/24/02 4:49 pm)
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God, Dark... You sound a lot like me with anger...
ehm. Don't want to explain it. Dude, don't do it. I... i can't think of anything else to say that i'd want to post here... uh...
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Scott Prower 
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(9/24/02 4:52 pm)
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Just don't.
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BlazeHedgehog
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(9/24/02 4:53 pm)
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Re: Goodbye everyone.
Leo's right, you know. If you off yourself now -- you're basically throwing 60+ years of your future right down the toilet. Think of what all you could do in 60+ years. So much potiential for just about ANYTHING you set your mind to -- and 60+ years to live it out.
I honestly don't think it's your fault. Trust me, I used to have anger issues too -- I dunno if you've heard the story or not (I feel like I tell it enough), but in 7th grade I snapped and nearly killed this kid (figuratively) because he had been teasing me about something for 8 full hours.
I faced assault charges and everything. (Luckily he dropped them; a friend of mine managed to talk him out of it) That story followed me through school clear until I dropped out of Highschool (11th Grade) -- I kicked his ass THAT HARD.
I had to go to an Anger Management course and everything.
And if I'M saying it's not your fault? Dude, trust me, it ain't. If your Mom was making fun of you to the point where it made you mad, you had every right to tell her to shut up.
Hitting back? While it's never cool to hit your Mom (or women in general), I've caught myself nearly doing the same thing -- (well, never hitting back, but I _have_ blocked some of the stuff she's swung at me. Mom's even afraid of me now, which is really depressing -- I don't want her to be afraid of me, but that's just how the dice fell) it's more reflex than anger.
Someone hits you. The first thing your brain says is "Defend yourself, stupid!" -- just, you, instead of being a wuss, and curling into a little ball, you hit back.
I still say you should call child services.
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H Hog
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(9/24/02 4:54 pm)
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OK, over to the real deal.
Instead of screaming and being angry, take your parents by surprise by stepping out the room perfectly calm, and willing to discuss this matter with your mother in a civilized way.
Then, explain how your computer keeps you in touch with friends you have, and that it'd be like taking away her telephone if she took away your computer.
Next, ask her to please resolve the quips she got you in with the rest of your family.
If she doesn't understand your position in this or just refuses to be civilized about it, leave the house.
Go to whatever family you can still trust, or maybe a prolonged period of visiting the best friend in your neighborhood.
Be sure not to let them know where you're going, just phone home once in a while asking if they're ready to resolve this normally.
Best of luck to you, my friend. o_o
This month's random webcomic link is... Waffle X - By Robert Luckett!
  
Edited by: H Hog at: 9/24/02 4:57:27 pm
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BlueJoshi 
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(9/24/02 4:59 pm)
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Re: Goodbye everyone.
Bluejoshi0 (5:58:53 PM): Damnit. And AJ can't get on and see that and stop him and I can't find AJ's phone number and damnitdamnitdamnit.
If I dun find AJ's number in time and Dark goes through with it, then... fuck.
 Edited by: BlueJoshi at: 9/24/02 4:59:30 pm
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WaddleDooDaa 
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(9/24/02 5:07 pm)
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Dark! Don't...You've always told me how foolish suicide was...You have FRIENDS, people who depend on you...@_@
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Neokku
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(9/24/02 5:08 pm)
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alright, @#%$ it. Changed my mind.
Well, here we go.
See, I went down that same path. My mom would ask me to do something, i wouldn't do it, she'd yell, i'd yell, she'd hit me, i'd hit her back harder. And hit her. Until she cried. Then i'd stop, and leave the house. And come back an hour later. To tell you the truth, i enjoyed it. The feeling of having power over someone. Maybe i would have been better off if she punished me. She didn't, and i know why... It's because she was afraid of me. Afraid I'd hurt her more. To tell you the truth, after i stopped hitting her, I started breaking things when i got mad. Three telephones, a Game Boy Advance, two Game Boy Colors, a couple of PS2 controllers, a bunch of models. She's still afraid of me, a bit, even though i've stopped. See, it was because i started supressing my emotions a lot. Anger was the hardest to stop from coming out, so when i got angry, everything would come out and i couldn't stop it.
To tell you the truth, I think about killing myself every day. But i don't. I'm a wuss, i'm afraid of pain. Although... i guess that's a good thing. Dark... don't do it.
Oh, and if someone says "Violence doesn't solve anything." It does. But it's never a good solution.
Come on, Dark, don't do it. Talk it out, see if you can get your computer back. Don't kill yourself, man, how would i come down to visit you if you do?
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Dark Kirby01
NOT NOUBEE!!11!
(9/24/02 5:09 pm)
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hm..
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Instead of screaming and being angry, take your parents by surprise by stepping out the room perfectly calm, and willing to discuss this matter with your mother in a civilized way.
Oh how I wish that would work...But apparently what I did was unforgiveable and can never be made up for.
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Then, explain how your computer keeps you in touch with friends you have, and that it'd be like taking away her telephone if she took away your computer.
Oh,she KNOWS how much I love the computer and how many friends I have here.That's the reason she's taking it away.
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If she doesn't understand your position in this or just refuses to be civilized about it, leave the house.
Go to whatever family you can still trust, or maybe a prolonged period of visiting the best friend in your neighborhood.Be sure not to let them know where you're going, just phone home once in a while asking if they're ready to resolve this normally.[/
She won't let me out of my room.I only have access to this comp because my room is connected to my sisters' through a closet..And my only friend lives in a different town far off.And my neighbourhood isn't exactly a good one to be sitting around alone in...Heck,people have been murdered in my back alley before..
I won't go through with suicide...I can't do it.I'm too scared of sharp objects,I'm too scared of what will happen if I fail in killing myself,and I know how much it sucks when a friend commits suicide...I've had it happen before,and I don't want it to happen to you guys.I just said that because I was cooling off anger...*goes to edit it out*But one thing's for sure,I'm going to be gone for a LONG while after today.....
And Blaze...Ouch.Nice to know someone else has/had kinda the same problem (well,not really,at all,but,um,y'know what I mean..I think).And I would call child management,but I'm too scared...Scared my mom will somehow turn it against me,or something...Plus I have no idea what the number is for it,I didn't even know it existed..
...god I sound like Gamma with all these periods
Moh,and I know how foolish it is,how utterly stupid,and that I'll be wasting my life,but....
Is it really worth it to live the 8 or so years in my room,alone,going to schools where people hate me and I get beat up,with NOTHING,until I can finally get out of this house?
Heh,it's kinda funny..Just the other day my mom was telling me how much potential I have,and that I shouldn't hate myself...Now she's calling me worthless.go me.
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BlazeHedgehog
As Anti-PS2 as they come
(9/24/02 5:18 pm)
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How on earth could she turn child services AGAINST you? They're called Child Services because they help YOU. It's not like you call child services, accuse her of child abuse, and then she spins it around and says it was you abusing her -- and then you get punished.
It just don't work that way. When/if you call, they'll probably ask you what the situation was -- explain everything to them. Then, they should tell you wether or not they're able to help you.
But I'm not entirely sure. That sounds like what they SHOULD do, (I mean, it's only logical -- why waste their time in sending someone out there to your house on something they can't help) -- but I've never called them myself.
edit: Gah, I got something backwards. fixed it now.
Sonic Xtreme Information DatabaseEdited by: BlazeHedgehog at: 9/24/02 5:28:58 pm
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H Hog
Hot Rod MC Mod
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(9/24/02 5:21 pm)
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Hum, that IS a sticky situation. *understatement of the week*
So lemme get this straight, you're locked in your room, with no stuff in there at all aside from your sister's internet, and there's no way of getting out?
...What DOES your mom want of you, anyway? What's her goal? What is she trying to accomplish by this?
This month's random webcomic link is... Waffle X - By Robert Luckett!
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BlueJoshi
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(9/24/02 5:26 pm)
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Well, hooray for being a wimp, then, Dark. The only way you should die is by living to death.
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Dark Kirby01
NOT NOUBEE!!11!
(9/24/02 5:29 pm)
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H:According to her,doing this will unspoil me.
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My revenge begins with you.
Thanks to Daa for the pic!
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YOU WILL BOW DOWN TO THE MESSED UP SIG MARQUEE!
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Yonis Yuumei
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(9/24/02 5:29 pm)
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>_<
Suicide is a coward's way out. And besides that, it's complete idiocy.
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I have nothing more to say, for reasons you know of.
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MagiSonic 
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(9/24/02 5:32 pm)
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...good lord.
This is way out of my league. There's not much I can do except try to make you feel the SLIGHTEST bit better. Every bit helps.
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H Hog
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And I like swords too
(9/24/02 5:52 pm)
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"unspoil" you?
....What does she want you to be, an antisocial hermit? O_@
Y'know, I'm no Dr. Spock, but stunts like this can only work in exactly the way NOT intended.
This month's random webcomic link is... Waffle X - By Robert Luckett!
Edited by: H Hog at: 9/24/02 5:54:37 pm
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